The second I realized I had been unconsciously putting all the energy I would've spent getting to know someone else towards getting to know myself, my life changed: Finally someone understood me and that person was me.
Being alone and feeling lonely are NOT the same thing.It kills me how much of my life I spent feeling like I was missing something just because I didn't have a person sitting next to me.I didn't have to worry so hard about appealing to anyone else. I never have to pause a conversation or ask for some alone time to finish What I want to say is this: Being alone doesn't have to be synonymous with feeling lonely.My own feelings of loneliness were coming from a deep-seated notion that I was woefully misunderstood.I made myself laugh more and stopped doing things I didn’t want to do. I stopped being so hard on myself about making new friends.
All the tension I'd felt growing up about feeling included started to release to the point I felt anxiety knots in my neck actually start to disappear. You never argue about what to watch on Netflix, what to order on Seamless, or what movie to see at the theater.The people I was dating constantly misunderstood me or projected certain ideas onto me that were so far from who I felt like I really was.Finally, after a particularly devastating end to an overbearing (and frankly, manipulative) relationship, I felt like I'd been slapped by reality: Suddenly, I started paying more attention to myself.It's something I'm proud of and it's something I'll try to share with whoever joins me next.When people ask me who I'm dating/if I'm dating/why I'm still single, it’s hard not to get frustrated.The song came into the forefront of social media when Kylie Jenner played “Myself” on Snapchat.