I always came from a place of abuse, actually wanting, welcoming, and accepting it because that was my language. I wanted to know where those behaviors came from and it helped me to be a better writer.
When we were reunited, he reminded me who I was, how beautiful I am, and how smart. I had forgotten how strong, how amazing--I am so amazing and I had forgotten it! I was still standing in the doorway of the club when a fight broke out. Even after the divorce and I married someone else, it was still happening in one way or another.This is the thing about amazing women or amazing people in general. So, I kicked off my shoes and ran out, like everyone else. Months later, after reviewing the tape and saw me, and he called a mutual friend of ours and that's how we met. It's difficult to admit that and to take readers through the cycle because it was so long.I can take anyone of those groups and write about them.But they are all in different nomenclatures so, I can write about just my friends who work in television and that's a book all to itself, yet, it may not be the whole story.KS: I think the ongoing misconception, and it has been for almost ten years, is that I live some sort of wild, sex-crazed life (laughs), whereas the truth of the matter is that in the last 7 or 8 years I've been married several times and have done very little dating. It took me 33 years to teach myself a new language and so, being brought up in an abusive household--never feeling loved, always feeling put upon, being abused sexually as a child, being raped--all of those things formulated the woman I was, who I am, and who I am becoming. My writing is innate, I've been writing since I was 5, so even when I was a child, it was how I let things go and gave them back to the universe.
So, when it comes to my interpersonal relationships with men, of course, a lifetime of abuse vastly affected everything I did. Also, I've had a spiritual life coach for the last 15 years and I started psychological therapy back in 2006 while writing my second book. I wanted to know what the statistics were when a young girl in her formative years is beaten, and raped. I had questions about the self-mutilation and other things that I was doing in my 20's.
He would make sure, no matter how busy he was, that I was well taken care of. I felt connected, and the friendship blossomed and continued from there. The way I love Wayne is not the way I love my father. Over the last 8 years, we've had crazy ups and downs but no matter what happened, I still loved him genuinely, as a person. That's hard to swallow because you want to be the person who, the minute someone says or does something that's not right to you, says, "I'm done with you. My son is not going to grow up thinking sex is bad, therefore, he won't shame women for having sex or be afraid to talk to me about sex.
There is still this chivalrous man in there who wants to make sure that you're taken care of. It's all different so, you have to put people in the right love zone. This is it." But, no matter what he does or says, I don't stop loving him. It became all too clear in late 2012, when Wayne began suffering from seizures, how important his life is to me, regardless of what has happened. If women would stop hiding, their children would be better equipped to deal with what the world has to offer.
Although haters and gossip magazines are quick to label her as a bitch or hoe, the electrifying beauty has not let the false reputation of being 'Superhead' or a video vixen stop her from becoming one of the world's most famous, successful female authors and entrepreneurs of our time.
Emerging from the dark shadows of her tragic past, Karrine is ready to set fire to her old reputation and give birth to her true identity.
So, for so long, I let publishers help create this vixen persona so that the books would read a certain way or create a certain stir.